Pets

Okay.
I wanted to own a cat, badly. But I know I can't own (well, I can't OWN a cat. Cat is a living being, and not to be owned by anyone) them because that's just my curiosity. I get bored of things very fast that's why I can't have something related to commitment. I had searched online for cats adoption and had an impulse to adopt one. But then, I realise. These poor cats don't deserve me as their adopter. I get bored easily. I'm a student. An international student. Studying in Singapore. Which means I don't know anything about Singapore other than MY basic needs. I don't have income. My home always empty during the day. Most importantly: I never pet a cat before. Which means I only saw them, watch them and never touched them before.
I don't have anyone that can give advice on pet to me because no one around me have one themselves.
I really love cat since I'm a kid, but that's just from my observation. Like I said, I never really get to know anything about cats more than what my eyes can see.
To boot it up, I had a hamster before, and it died after 6 months. From starvation? I'm not sure because I was so heart broken that I don't want to handle his corpse. I'm the worst. I know I am. I feel so guilty that I didn't give him much more care than he should have. I shouldn't have bought him. If I didn't, He probably is still alive that conclude everything for me. No pet. I don't want to kill another living beings just because of my curiouity and impulsiveness. I love you, Tamiie, and sorry that I didn't love you enough and took better care of you. Don't forgive me, because I don't deserve it.